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thinking by the sink

this is what happens when i have too much time for myself. it wasn't intentional, and i got really bored because i wanted to do so many things but i couldn't get off my lazy ass to actually do them. well i was sitting around in the house (and falling asleep randomly for a few minutes each time i don't know why) then i got hungry so i went to the kitchen, but i got something to drink instead. in the end, i stood by the sink and THOUGHT while i drank. i actually stood there for a pretty long time thinking. a lot.

i keep closing myself in.
i keep closing myself in.
and i thought about a lot of other really random stuff.

oh yeah, and you know, dad's scary when he's angry. BUT! if he's angry and DRIVING THE CAR, oh my gawd. better seatbelts need to be invented. i think he's going to kill us all one day. like BAM! i don't want to die getting tangled up in twisted metal D: mental note to self--provoke dad anywhere else if i must but NEVER in the car ok.

i think my muse comes back to me whenever i stand by the sink and wash something XD

"Hey, I'm coming over to your bar today, I want to tell Moko and Kei about the party. They'll be coming in today?"

"Sure they'll come, they come every day, so they'll come in today, too... Me, I'd really like to show it to you."

"What?"

"That specimen book with all the leaves in it. A lot of people back in Okinawa collect insects, because they've got prettier butterflies than here, but me, I made a book of leaf veins, you know, and the teacher said it was real good, and because I got a prize and went all the way to Kagoshima, I still keep it in my desk drawer. I'm taking real good care of it, I really want to show it to you."

We reached the station, Reiko threw away the popular leaf beside the road. The roof over the platform flashed silver, and I put on my sunglasses. "It's already summer, really hot."

"Huh? What?"

"Yeah, I said it's already summer."

"Summer's hotter." Reiko just stared at the rails.


---- an extract from "Almost Transparent Blue" by Ryu Murakami

When he came back into the room, Kazuo let out a yell. "This guy's had it," said Okinawa, shaking his head. Yoshiyama's left wrist was slashed open, his blood spattered on the rug. Reiko shrieked and closed her eyes. Kazuo jumped up and cried, "Ryu, call an ambulance!"

Holding the shaking arm above the wound with his other hand, Yoshiyama said through his nose, "Kei, you see what I mean?"

I started out to call an ambulance but Kei seized my arm and stopped me. She got up, supported by Reiko, and looked steadily into Yoshiyama's eyes. She went close to him and gently touched his wound. He'd stopped crying. She raised his split-open wrist and held it up before her eyes. She spoke with difficulty, twisting her swollen mouth.

"Yoshiyama, we're going out to eat now, nobody's had lunch yet so we're going out to eat. If ya want to die, ya go and die alone, right? So ya don't lay any hassle on Ryu, go outside and die alone."


---- an extract from "Almost Transparent Blue" by Ryu Murakami

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